Wow… what a great day it was yesterday… my wife’s family (who loves dogs!) came over and we had a great feast (smoked turkey, roasted veggies, homemade pies, beets and cranberry sauce, a few beers and a little wine) and some great conversation. The dog we’re sitting just totally freaked over all the loving attention she got and everyone got a chance to share in playing with her… she was the center of attention all day! Add to that some good football on TV, a little music, some net-surfing and wonderful camaraderie and you got the formula for a perfect day… almost.
I did miss my family in CNY and all over the rest of the country, especially my two sons (and, of course, their families). But, I’m thankful for what I had and hope that everyone had an equally, if not better, day. I’m hoping to have some pictures up later…
The pup is telling me she’s gotta “go”… so, I’m off to do my duty!!
I awoke this morning feeling a little guilty about the way I treated the puppy yesterday. I didn’t really abuse her or anything like that, it’s just that I didn’t really play as much as I could have and I was a little annoyed with her. But, yeah, know, dogs are so forgiving… humans have a lot to learn from them. As I came out of the bedroom, there she was, her “dolly” in her mouth, whining up a storm and wagging her tail, just so happy to see me. I gave her a lot of loving and we spent some “quality time” together… yesterday was gone and all that she cared about was what was happening NOW!
Anything or anyone becomes your “teacher” if you are open to it!
Have a great thanksgiving!!
Today has been designated as the time for Americans to celebrate Thanksgiving and although I’m not a big fan of all the “mindless, commercialized holidays” that we are endlessly and needlessly bombarded with, I think this an excellent time to reflect on the things I am grateful for in my life. One of my biggest “rules for living” is to be in a constant state of gratitude and acceptance… to be fully conscious each moment of the wonder and beauty of the world around me and to treat each person I meet with respect and love. Sure I fall short at times but that is my intent, and the more I practice it, the better I get.
I’d like to take a moment to reflect on all the people who have contributed so much to my life, especially those who have “passed over”; the list is endless and I know I’ll miss someone but I’ll do my best: my grandparents, my parents, my wives, my sons, my daughters-in-law, my grandsons, my aunts, uncles, nieces, nephews and cousins; my brothers and sister; my many friends and acquaintances… to all those who have touched my life or will affect it in the future. (I was contemplating naming each person but that would have taken considerable time and space). A special thanks to the Source of All that Is, (whatever name That may have) and to all the big and little things that make up my world, especially this “body” which allows me to move around and experience all the beauty and wonder of it all. Thank you, thank you, thank you…
As I re-read this post, I can not help but notice how I’ve fallen short in expressing what I’m feeling and intending… words are just so inadequate and superficial. But, the intent is there and that’s all any of us can really do… and, my wish for you is that you each have a life filled to the brim with happiness, joy, abundance, peace and love, each and every second.
Now, I gotta go help prepare today’s “food orgy”… Many blessings to you all!
It’s funny how something so cute can quickly become so annoying… I commented earlier that this dog had the “cute” habit of coming up to you with a dolly in its mouth and whining (this translates to “please pet me”). Well, after a few days of this (and the added annoyance of sitting outside the bedroom door and begging at 7AM) I’m about fed up with the “cute” thing and I’m ready to strangle that poor dog!
For the first few days after she was dropped off here (her owners went on a 10 day cruise) I was seriously contemplating getting a puppy for ourselves… but this experience has led me to question the sanity of that possibility. As I’ve gotten older. I’ve become more set in my ways and find it more intrusive to have anything interfer with m schedule… I’d like to think of myself as being very flexible, but, in reality, I see I am very set in my ways.
This is not to say that there is no possibility of having a pet… just that I need to examine the real consequences closer… And, the other consideration is my wife, who has an even less tolerance for unforeseen changes in schedule than I do. One thing I hate seeing is when people get pets and start abusing them, either through neglect or outright physical abuse, because they resent the animals presence. I’d rather avoid all that by thoroughly considering all options and consequences before making the decision.
to be continued…..
Today, I got news that one of aunts passed away last night. She had been extremely ill for quite a while so it came as no surprise yet it certainly is a sad day for my family. Death always seems to make me pause and reflect on my life and my relationships. I’m 61 and, although I’m not senile or incapacitated , the reality of reduced functionality becomes ever so more obvious each day. I have to wonder: how much longer will it be? what will my later years be like? have I done enough to minimize my regrets in later years? what can I do now to ease the pain and anguish of unfulfillment that seems to be unavoidable in my “twilight years”?
There is no easy answer to any of this…. and, I doubt I’m even looking for anything that would finalize these musings. To me, life is an ongoing questioning into meaning and purpose and needs to be honored as such. I think the brain loves definitive answers and is much more comfortable when everything is placed in its proper “box”. There seems to be safety and succor when all the loose ends are neatly organized and categorized. I believe strongly that real personal growth takes place when we allow ourselves to stay in the question and give our thoughts and fears the space they need to unfold in their own way.
Where does this leave me, today? Well, nowhere and everywhere… I’m in no hurry to get past this. Rather, I’m letting things gestate and float aimlessly in my mind, noticing the internal conversation as it bubbles up from my unconscious while going about my daily trappings.
Just now, the dog we’re “sitting” came over to me and “demanded” I play with her… and, so, I will! And life goes on…
Well, not much happening here except we are babysitting a beautiful young lab (about 10 mos old). She is such a fun dog and has some cute peculiarities… anytime you walk into the room after she’s been alone for awhile, she picks up one of her toys and comes up to you, whining (talking?) and “begging” you to play. It really puts a smile on your face. We have a big back yard and she loves to pick up branches and sticks and prance around or run in big circles. Also, she has a tennis ball that she carries to the top of a hill and lets it roll downhill so she can chase it (she pretends she is surprised to see the ball, as if it came out of nowhere)… too funny!
Tomorrow, I plan on exploring why it seems so much easier to do things tomorrow….